I would like it if he was still rattling around somewhere, in some form, even if it was no longer the whole corporeal-human-existence-known-as-"life" thing. Back when I was spending 90% of my waking time either crying or barely staving off the crying, I kept trying to convince myself that it was true, because if it WAS true, it would make things a whole lot easier to get through. "Never again" is an awful thing. "Eventually, so just be patient, and hey, maybe enjoy stuff meanwhile" is altogether different.
Except given a lack of definitive evidence of any such thing, combined with the usual pessimism and belief that Things Simply Do Not Go The Way That Would Make Jenny Happy (Just See Recent Events For Example)... meh. I have never been one for the whole "faith" thing, because I need evidence. It doesn't necessarily have to stand up in court, but it has to be something that my brain can be happy with, and on this front, there just ain't any of that.
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I would like it if he was still rattling around somewhere, in some form, even if it was no longer the whole corporeal-human-existence-known-as-"life" thing. Back when I was spending 90% of my waking time either crying or barely staving off the crying, I kept trying to convince myself that it was true, because if it WAS true, it would make things a whole lot easier to get through. "Never again" is an awful thing. "Eventually, so just be patient, and hey, maybe enjoy stuff meanwhile" is altogether different.
Except given a lack of definitive evidence of any such thing, combined with the usual pessimism and belief that Things Simply Do Not Go The Way That Would Make Jenny Happy (Just See Recent Events For Example)... meh. I have never been one for the whole "faith" thing, because I need evidence. It doesn't necessarily have to stand up in court, but it has to be something that my brain can be happy with, and on this front, there just ain't any of that.
ME TYPE LOTS POKEY HOORAY