OH MAN

Feb. 19th, 2007 12:10 pm
I had no idea this was online. Maybe the Baen people only put it up recently.

A Logic Named Joe (click "Next" if you want to skip the bio) -- sci-fi story by one "Murray Leinster", about the Internet. Written in 1946. I have touted this story, and this author, before, but now no hunting down of dead trees is required.

First bit: It was on the third day of August that Joe come off the assembly line, and on the fifth Laurine come into town, an' that afternoon I saved civilization. That's what I figure, anyhow.

I don't think I've read any of the other stories in that collection besides The Fourth-Dimensional Demonstrator (which involves an unusually amiable kangaroo named Arthur), so this is just hardcore awesome all around.



(If anyone wants a more personal update, just go back and read the last few ones I did. Nothing really much changes -- I am trapped in a nightmare that doesn't end, where I am mocked by having lots of other things act like they might finally start to go right, while the one thing I wanted most dearly is now forever out of my reach. And my last words in this life to the man I loved so much that it hurt are still "eight pixels is not that much".

Reading things online is much more exciting.)

Posting.

Feb. 2nd, 2007 12:09 pm
I am almost out of gun show beef jerky. Sad.

I am going to see mecha in about an hour, for the first time in weeks. He isn't coming home for realz yet, but mechamom needed to come take me to get groceries and he is coming along to visit.

I am absolutely enamored with this. Truly the most stirring musical performance ever given by man or Muppet. Watch it, I beg of you. Two minutes of awesome.

I am still broken and lost, though I cry little now except at bedtime. Knowledge of another lonely day passed and a seemingly-endless string of similar days yet to go can do that to a person, I suppose.

I am surviving, even though every second I do so takes me further from the time when the man I love was still alive.

That about sums it up, I suppose.
Inspired by the old comic projects I found and posted links to in my last entry, I just dug up and scanned a project I did for a class in October 2003. It was the history-of-comic-books class mecha and I took; we had to take a well-known story and script it as a 2-3 page comic. We could draw it if we wanted, but all that was required was the script. Naturally, I drew my retelling of that classic fable "The Honest Woodcutter." Also naturally, my retelling goes off in a completely bizarre direction.

Page 1 - Page 2 - Page 3.

Presented in worst-scan-ever-o-vision, because what I actually scanned was stapled-together pieces of tracing paper that had been folded in half for three years.

I also did this for the same class, but it's less amusing.

Enjoy.
I actually care enough to change the userpic on the entry for once. Look, a cute vole. When I was making this userpic I remember thinking that Chris would like it. You know what? I bet he would. Voles are just that awesome. And cute.

From AIM a little while ago:
[01:48:52] The Jennybork: YOU
[01:48:54] The Jennybork: ENTERTAIN ME
[01:49:00] [16-year-old e-friend]: ALRIGHT
[01:49:03] [16-year-old e-friend]: -strips-
[01:49:12] [16-year-old e-friend]: HOW IS THAT?
[01:49:15] The Jennybork: Um. I think you just made me a criminal.

My brain is getting slowly used to the idea that my time with Chris is a thing of the past, that "never again" really DOES mean "no, seriously, NEVER EVER AGAIN". It is kind of terrifying. I guess it's necessary so I can heal and get on with my life and whatever else, but it's still kind of terrifying. Jenny, comfortably in a relationship and lookin' forward to gettin' married someday, is gone. Now there is only Zuuluh er I mean Jenny who is livin' the single life and not enjoying it at all. Also Zuul NO DAMMIT NO ZUUL AND I AM STILL NOT THE GATEKEEPER1

I thought Valentine's day was stupid and pointless last year, and the year before, and the year before, and so on. This year I am probably going to be extra-emo about its stupidness to boot, because I am all alone and so on. Blarg. It is probably a good sign that I am terribly annoyed by all the emo. It means I am not entirely soaking in it anymore.

On Saturday I will be falling off the Internet for a while. Someone will be coming down here to get me and take me back up to Indy, either to mechamom's or mechasister's. I don't know how long I'll be gone; certainly at least until the 2nd of January, and maybe not for a few days after that. I'll have my cell so I can make phoneposts if I need to, though, and those of you that know the number, if for some reason you feel that you cannot go a second longer without getting my unique perspective on life, feel free to call.

Sean, you can't have the number. I'm just sayin' before you ask. So don't bother. MAYBE IF YOU WERE NOT SUCH A JERK THINGS WOULD BE DIFFERENT; FEEL FREE TO TAKE THAT TRIP TO HELL NOW

I finally updated my comics link list after like two months of not getting around to it. Although I'm pretty sure that I left something off, even if I can't remember what it was. All of those comics are good, and deserve your eyeballs.

I had chicken barbecue pizza for dinner tonight. I ordered it online and then like an hour and twenty minutes later Mad Mushroom FINALLY called and said that they had just gotten the fax in, but I told them I still wanted it, 'cause I did. When I eventually got it, I ate half of it all at once. Pizza tastes even more delicious when you've been starvin' for three hours! Especially when it is just about the best chicken barbecue pizza you can get in all of Bloomington, a town well-known for its multifarious pizzarias.

Whipped out We Love Katamari today, and managed to finally get past Bright on the firefly stage. Good stuff. I am debating whether to give GTA:SA another try; I'm currently stuck on three different mission strands, but even if I can't pass any missions, I can still run around San Andreas stealin' cars, cappin' fools, and pimpin' hos. Technology betters all our lives!

That's about it, I think.

1. Mainly referring to the three-parter linked here. Man, what is it with me and weird little pagey thingies involving mythical evilish creatures.2
2. See, 'cause I also did this in August 2004.

I like cheese.
Back in earlyish 2000, my friend Becky and I were bored. We were bored and online and sitting in a MUX, which is basically a text-based universe that can be used for chat, immersive roleplaying, or anything in between. We were bored in the MUX and I had this crazy little webcomic about a girl and her snail, so we decided to post a blurb on the comic site, asking readers to come in and play with us.

We got a few folks trickling in... not sure how many, but probably not more than six. Only a couple stayed around for very long, though, and over the years we all sort of vaguely stayed in the same circle of mutualish e-friends. One of those fellows was [livejournal.com profile] vxo, radio-obsessed urban-exploring human lightning rod extraordinaire. The other was [livejournal.com profile] chrisxk.

I have been informed tonight that Chris died early last month. There's an obit here, though you may have to use bugmenot.com to actually get at it; basically on November 7th he was found dead. His brother says that the doctor types couldn't find a reason, and so they chalked it up to Chris just dying in his sleep. At the age of 22. What the hell, universe.

Now, I knew that Chris had disappeared off the Internet, but I wasn't actually all that concerned for a while. People just sometimes lose connectivity... hell, mecha and I lost it for like a month and a half when we forgot to pay that Comcast bill, and if I hadn't been a paid LJ user and/or had access to mechamom's apartment with its crappy dialup, I would've been e-silent for all that time. So I figured he would show up again eventually, and that maybe in another few weeks I would investigate, but not yet. Then someone contacted me on his AIM name while I was asleep and left without saying anything useful. That sort of piqued my concern, so I got ahold of Ken, his best meatspace friend, who got ahold of his (Chris's) brother on DeviantArt, who delivered the bad news. And then there's that obit, which seems to seal the deal. Chris is dead.

It was all very low-key, but I know that a couple of you knew that Chris and I were involved. Dating. Something. Whatever you call it when for most of it you're separated by a timezone or three. He asked me once if I would marry him, and I said yes. This Christmas would have been our anniversary. There is a very snarky, very angry part of me that is basically saying "congratulations everyone who said that an online relationship would never last; turns out you were right". The rest of me just wishes it could have not-lasted in a way that resulted in his still being alive and happy somewhere in the world, whether or not I was still involved.

I've taken about three hours to write this post, mainly because it's hard to write so I keep going off and doing other things instead. After Ken pasted me what Chris's brother wrote, I was kind of calm and numb about the whole thing, but the numbness is starting to wear off, possibly in part because I'm extremely tired. Probably mainly because I'm going to have some grievin' to get on. There is a Chris-shaped hole inside me right about now, and it's never going to be filled; everything's just going to have to kind of be rerouted around it. So it goes.

Goodbye, Chris. Rest in peace; as much as I love you, I'll still be forced to headshot you if you come back as a zombie.
A scientist is trying to use quantum-entangled particles to send information instantaneously, which would allow for faster-than-light communication.

[07:11:52] [Mecha]: if he can prove that, it would allow for zero latency communication across any distance, at least in theory
[07:12:05] The Jennybork: Ahh.
[07:12:14] [Mecha]: in practice you'd be entangling a lot of particles which just has to get tricky
[07:12:45] [Mecha]: but yeah. no delays in communication at all. to mars, to alpha centauri, to the other side of the universe. faster than light... chatter, anywhoo
[07:13:02] The Jennybork: Oh gods.
[07:13:12] The Jennybork: FTL a/s/l.
[07:13:15] The Jennybork: I have to go kill myself now.
[07:14:12] [Mecha]: some day, a probe will come into the solar system, entangled with our quantum neighbors, sending us a bajillion pieces of spam a second on all radio frequencies
[07:14:33] [Mecha]: no military on earth will be able to stop it
[07:14:36] [Mecha]: oddly, they take Visa
[00:42:05] d**************u: I know what kage, ho, kaze, and a bunch of other words mean.
[...]
[00:46:19] The Jennybork: I KNOW WHAT 'HO' MEANS TOO
[00:46:24] d**************u: What?
[00:46:41] The Jennybork: IT'S THE THING THE PIMP SMACKS AROUND
[00:46:46] The Jennybork: HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
[00:46:51] d**************u: No.
[00:46:54] d**************u: It means 'fire'.
[00:47:04] The Jennybork: SET HER ON FIRE IF YOU REALLY WANT I GUESS
[00:47:09] The Jennybork: THAT'S FIFTY BUCKS EXTRA THOUGH
[00:47:13] The Jennybork: Ohh, I'm going to hell.

I also got to reference this, which is seriously one of the best xkcd comics ever. I love you, Randall Munroe. Have my non-raptor babies.

Finally, a letter.

Dear Approximately Half Of Virginia:

What the fuck. No, seriously, WHAT THE FUCK.

If there were any justice in the world, tomorrow you would all wake up with deer heads stuffed in your mailboxes. Every single one.

Hate,
Jenny.


That's about it.
So I was going another round of the age-old Try To Find A Useful Schedule Of Classes That Is Not Horrific To Have To Live Through dance, and after determining that there weren't really four available degree-progress classes I could take, I went browsing randomly for a filler class. There were some nice-looking ones I had to turn down on the basis of Too Fucking Early, or of being at the same time as an actually needed class. That Topics in Art class on death imagery during the Plague was particularly intriguing. Eventually I borked on into the Philosophy Of Science department, or Philosophy and History of Science, or Science and History of My Spleen, or whatever it is, and stumbled across this doozy.

Can you see why it made me, as the kids say, lawlz?



The really funny part is that the other section of this particular class is on a different topic that looks far more interesting to me: Science and the Occult. I'd say there's no accounting for taste, except then I'd have to go look up a link that for some reason I still remember existing after all these years and oh goddammit too late. Curse you, Gooey-gar. Curse you and your surprisingly useful archive dropdown that saved me having to look for an hour.

Assuming that I can get the schedule I've outlined for myself, or one of its variants that I have also outlined, then I won't be too bad off except on Thursdays. Does anyone ever get the hang of them?
So. Um.

I am reading World War Z by Max Brooks, the same guy who wrote the Zombie Survival Guide. It's good. A series of "oral accounts" of fictional survivors of the great worldwide zombie outbreak. I'm not even a quarter in yet and already he's brought up all sorts of interesting things that probably WOULD happen in a zombie plague scenario, but that I never even imagined myself (even though I think more about zombies than is probably healthy). Like: what happens to the organ transplant business?

I am also playing City of Heroes (on Victory, if anyone out there is still playing a MMO that isn't World of Warcraft). I got a free two-week acount to mess around in it a bit with a friend, and then mecha got his own free account, and the two of us realized that we both liked it a lot. So for a little while, anyway, we're going to keep playing. Went out and bought two copies of the Good Versus Evil edition and everything. Of course, we had to hit SEVEN STORES before FINALLY finding them in stock at WAL*MART of all places. But.

I am also also in love with this video, which is a pairs skating adaptation of the Million Ways dance. I used to love watching figure skating when I was younger, and then it started getting really boring because really all the skaters do basically the same thing over and over again, with a few exceptions. These two have made it interesting again, at least for the span of four minutes.

I am also also also generally feeling a bit better about stuff than I was a month or two ago. Part of this is because we are getting a handle on the whole going-back-to-school thing. We should be getting our financial aid packages in soon, and there should be enough money to survive on; we'll be getting our old bursar bills paid soon and then we should be able to actually register for classes; and, perhaps nicest of all, we've secured what looks to be a very clean and quiet two-bedroom two-bath apartment that is on a bus route to campus and is affordable. Probably the last one of those left in Bloomington. Ours now, suckas!

Oh, and I've also started taking a daily vitamin, which is just a good idea anyway, plus if I was sad and listless because of any deficiencies then not so much any more. "Deficiencies" does not look like a real word. Maybe I spelled it wrong.

So that's about it until the next time I post, which will probably be in, like, five years. Or not. Either way.

PS: Mike's Halloween costume fills my heart with malicious glee. (He is the guy in the first three pictures!)
I was awake for 26 hours straight yesterday, and then I slept four hours last night! Boy, being too poor to afford the drugs you need to function normally is AWESOME. Woo 'Merica! Keep the health care costs up and the health statistics down! Single-payer government insurance, and the attendant rise in public health and longevity, are for COMMIES.

I just got myself a lovely breakfast consisting of a tiny box of cereal and a glass of root beer (because that is what I've decided it means), when I happened to glance at the said tiny box.

It was a box of Honey Nut Cheerios. A good enough cereal, and better than the raisin bran that was the other tiny box. And I'm sure we're pretty much all familiar with the little cartoon bee that has been their mascot for at least a couple decades, but I'll refresh your collective memory anyway: here is the bee on the box.



A happy, smiling cartoon bee.

Until you look closer.



That is not an expression of happiness. That is an agonized rictus most often associated with the realization that one's existence is utterly meaningness and devoid of purpose or joy.



Chilling.


While I'm making a picture post, here, have a bottle of dishwashing liquid.



Because as we all know, the default state of the universe is "ultra".
I keep forgetting that LJ exists until I go to upload something to the scrapbook. Case in point: my new avatar for the YPP forums.



The drawing actually continues almost to the legs, but when I resized it to 150 pixels it looked like yuck, and thus the upper-body shot. ph33r the cute, though. Oh, how very much ph33ring is necessary.

This is neat and somehow a little sad. Because no matter how hard you try, you CAN'T stop that arrow, not really. You can only pretend to.

This is a pretty funny clip from Spaced, a British sitcom which features the guy who was Shaun in Shaun of the Dead.

This makes me hate Straub all the more for being able to make with the pretty words and pictures when I cannot. Haaaate.

This is me posting a lot of links and not much actual content. Doot de doo.

Yeah.
Okay, I just totally removed my AIM screenname from my userinfo. Y'all may wish to do the same, depending on whether I'm just the last one to hear about this or not.

I don't need this shit, yo.

Also: new userpic! It is from here.
Okay, thanks to rsspect.com, fp now has its own RSS feed. I've long since tired of having to remember to give update notices in my LJ here, but I'd no idea how the hell to code a proper RSS feed. Sure, I could easily have reuploaded an xml file at update time every Monday and Friday, but that is kind of missing the point of automation.

Of course, setting up the fp script to work with rsspect has given me some idea how I could code my own, but such are the ironies of life.

At any rate, if you're at all interested in Four Panels then you should add [livejournal.com profile] fourpanelsfeed to your friends list, or http://rsspect.com/rss/fourpanels.xml to your favorite RSS reader. I'll do manual announces of the next few reviews, and include a link to the feed there too, because I know what it is to be lazy. But after that, if you're not reading the RSS feed, you will be so damn out of the know.

Shifting topics, today would be my birthday. I have reached my first quarter-century. I think that means I'm old or something? Or maybe that's 30. I don't know any cool young kids to ask and make sure. Either way, when I was in high school, I figured that by 25 I'd be graduated from college and teaching somewhere. Instead I am currently waiting in a bizarre limbo state to see if and when IU will get off its ass and give me my financial aid and stuff so I can go back to trying for the sixth or seventh year to finally finish a damn degree. Six if you count years I actually was going to classes full-time, seven if you count calendar years. Jesus. It's depressing.

But! I don't need to think about that now especially since there is literally nothing I can do, up to and including getting my advisor to even answer my emails. So let's shift topics again to kittens.

The thing about kittens? Is they are awesome.

Puppies are acceptable too.

Finally, for anyone who has seen or will seen X3 (spoiler-free): http://dieselsweeties.com/archive.php?s=1496
While at the comics shop today, we heard this song (edit: mecha uploaded it here so until someone goes "OMG IT IS AN MP3 ILLEGAL!!!1" and reports it, you can get it there faster than from my server) over the store's speakers. We liked it so much that I just spent a buck at the guy's site to download it. Now according to the license I may share it all I like for free, and so I believe I shall.

Lyrics:

Welcome to my secret lair on Skullcrusher Mountain
I hope that you've enjoyed your stay so far
I see you've met my assistant Scarface
His appearance is quite disturbing
But I assure you he's harmless enough
He's a sweetheart, calls me master
And he has a way of finding pretty things and bringing them to me

[begin incredibly catchy chorus]
I'm so into you
But I'm way too smart for you
Even my henchmen think I'm crazy
I'm not surprised that you agree
If you could find some way to be
A little bit less afraid of me
You'd see the voices that control me from inside my head
Say I shouldn’t kill you yet

( Read more... )

So, yes. Awesomeness.
So I wrote a little fanmail to Jeffrey Rowland, because I was feeling especially aware of his awesomeness and wanted to congratulate him on it. I didn't really expect a reply, but he did send one, and it made me laugh so I'm posting it here.

Thank you Jenny! Thanks for helping the dream come alive and crawl out of the well with its hair hanging over its face!

HOW CAN YOU BEAT THAT FOR A REPLY.

You cannot. That is how.
Guess who has a signed The Case of the Missile Crisis? Huh? Guess who has one when you don't?

Me, baby. Me.

Thursday.

Mar. 30th, 2006 03:04 am
Today's review: Doom

Also, I just read Anansi Boys. It was, naturally, insanely fuckin' good. Neil Gaiman, I hate you for being so awesome, and will kill you and eat your brains in order to gain your powers. Just you wait.

HAY MECHA

Mar. 21st, 2006 07:52 pm
And everyone else, I suppose.

http://videosift.com/story.php?id=630 -- five-minute video of the coolest homemade lightsaber fight I have ever seen in my life.

Ted would probably like it too!
I have been semi-obsessively reloading the Rotten Tomatoes page for V for Vendetta, seein' as I am killer looking forward to it, and this little gem caught my eye:



THAT'S BECAUSE IT IS, FUCKFACE!

Seriously. What defines a terrorist? Group of militants disguised as civilians, hiding their supplies in civilian areas? Use of violence and/or intimidation to get a government to give you something you want? Committing or threatening violence against the civilians of the other side to let them know you mean business? Often having a strong political or religious motivation?

Go look up the American Revolution in a history book.

Golly. George Washington was apparently a terrorist! But that can't be, because he was a revolutionary! Right?

Right?

I don't care that this Jeff Giles guy doesn't like the movie. I haven't even seen the thing yet; maybe I won't like it either. He can have any opinion on the movie he wants. BUT FOR GOD'S SAKE YOU FUCKING MORON HOW ARE THEY NOT THE SAME THING



Man, this is the type of post I make after I hang around mecha for too long.

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